do you ever feel like you’re watching your own life from the outside? there you are — doing things, smiling, talking. and the real you is somewhere deep inside, completely detached. your emotions feel muted. pain, joy, fear — everything like it’s behind glass. you remember how it used to feel, but you can’t feel it anymore. and no, it’s not “just being tired.” it feels like an inner death while the body is still alive. then you look in the mirror and think: who is this person? and why do they lo